I had an appointment with my specialist yesterday, and he was runing 1.5 hours late. So I finally got out of the appointment around 6pm.
It was great though, he is happy with how things are going with the liver results and in January he is dropping down my steroid dose by 2.5 mg and then the following month we are dropping down again. It will take a while to come of them, but it is the right direction.
So back to how I am going to focus on my fitness, well I had my first program set by the trainer on Tueday, and it didn't go as well as I had hope. I have been to gyms before and managed all of the exercises but she set me one that I just really struggled with and I ended up bursting into tears and honestly I could have almost stopped right then and there, but I didn't I continued, but man I felt so useless especially after having lost as much weight as what I have, that I couldn't do that simple thing. But I guess when you have been obese since the age of 9 some of the muscles just don't work the same.
So back to the gym tonight, had a rest day on between. It should take around 45 mins for my program, and I will honestly attempt each thing. After she realised where my actual fitness level is, she has adapted some of it and on some of the exercises she wants me to even to do 2 on each leg as a start and slowly build up.
So, the focus on fitness is continuing and I am also concious of what I am eating. I bought a calorie counter the other day as although I never want to really diet again, I do need to be concious of my energy levels, and one of the things I discovered was that I am not eating anywhere near enough in energy during the day, which would account for why I am ready to enhale the house when I get home from work and that doesn't usually stop till bedtime.
So I am increasing my intake during the day which should make things more even.
Next year I am also going to be blogging more about my journey to actually re-establish a strong link between myself and my WLS tool. I am using the Katie Jay "Small Bites - Daily Inspirations for Weight Loss Surgery Patients" book which has exercises everyday. Some of these are journaling, some are meditation etc, and I am going to give myself over to that process. You can get some of the daily inspirations free from her website www.nawls.com
Today is going to be an interesting day, we have meeting at work regarding possible restructuring, so I might pop back later to update. Just trying to keep an open mind and arm myself with the knowledge I have gottent hrough redundancy and illness at the same before, I can get through anything.
If I don't make it back before Christmas, have a safe and Merry Christmas.